My family is having a wonderful dinner tonight... so far I have not been interested in what they are eating but TONIGHT...I really want a bite! I decided to go to my room while they eat and get the leftovers put away to be safe. But I am really in a bad mood, I want it so badly but I know I can't have that. I can't even have a bite of it and I think I am going crazy! It is amazing how much food controls me. This feeling that I am having right now is exactly why I am over weight in the first place. It is sobering to know I CAN NOT and WILL NOT eat that today. I am however looking forward to the day I can have it and only eat a small amount and be totally OK with that normal amount of food.
I also went through my skinny clothes to make myself feel better and that calmed my nerves a little. I have one more box of jeans under my bed but I can't get to it because it still hurts to bend in weird ways. I guess that is normal since I just had surgery a little over a week ago.... Pray for me!
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