New weightloss is going SLOW!

Im totally ok with my weight loss slowing down since I'm getting close to goal! I weighed in at 141.8 which puts me just over the 50lbs mark!!

But first let me take a selfie...

No not really I'm so not the selfie person on social networking sites at all but for some reason I feel a little free on my blog plus I bet you want to see some pictures.. Here goes!

And now for the dreaded bathing suit pictures...

Excuse my dirty bathroom please...

Ok now the real stupid selfies

Ok I'm done! LOL

About 3.5 months out

I am about 3.5 months out now and I have lost close to 50lbs! I think I have been doing the math wrong on a few posts... Oh well. I weighed in at 142.3 yesterday Woot Woot! I am feeling good though the my saggy arms and skin are kinda gross but I can totally live with it. I would rather be skinny and saggy than round and super plump like I was before. I wonder how much I will continue to lose?? My goal is 135 so I am hoping I will get to that number because that would be nice!

My hubby hates my new pants 😒

He told me my pants are ugly and he doesn't like the style.. He also hesitated so long when I asked well do I look ok in them?... I am so hurt. I had Isaac my 6 year old take some pix of me in them, I need a second opinion! Sorry for some blurry pix 😁

Yes I know that Old Navy runs two sizes bigger than normal sizes which makes my 6's really 10's and my 4's really 8's plus they are stretchy jeans. I know I know but it is still kind of awesome, right?!

Old Habits Die Hard

Well old habits due hard! I had a really bad day. I went to the dentist and because I am broke as a joke I never got a crown on my tooth that needed a root canal. Welllll now it needs to be redone and it is going to cost me $450 that I do not have! Plus it gets worse, the tooth next to it also needs a root canal... not to mention they will both need crowns. I sobbed in my car after the dentist visit for about 15 minutes and then drove to McDonalds. I do really love my sleeve though because I am eating a few fries and already I feel nasty and have not even taken a bite of the McDouble I ordered (ha). You know you have a serious food addiction when the taste of even one hot salty french fry can melt your stress away (even if only for a few minutes). I am so tired of being broke and having problems with my teeth! I am almost done with school and I can not wait to make a decent paycheck too bad my teeth won;t wait another two years!! I feel really bad because my husband has been wanting to buy a boy toy and has been holding back to be "good"  and now I am going to spend all our money on my stupid teeth! really. We need to save since I will not be making a dime starting in June of this year until I am done with student teaching and then still until I get/don't get subbing jobs or a real teaching position. OMG! Sometimes I do not know how we are going to make it. I'm scared.

Evil peeps

Oh man, the Easter candy is making my life miserable! I was so sad on Easter and kind of in a funk because I was not able to stuff my face the way I wanted to. I was too busy feeling sorry for myself to enjoy my "meal" with the family. Don;t get me wrong I am glad I can't eat like I want to but it does make me sad sometimes... What a weird thing it is to be addicted to food. Hopefully I can snap out of this mourning for food eventually..

Why do WLS patients LIE?

Well from the very beginning of this whole journey I told myself I was not going to lie to anyone who asked me how I am losing weight BUT this is proving to be harder than I thought, A LOT harder. It is weird..some people have asked me in a drive by manner, for example as they are walking by saying a quick hello but it is obvious they have somewhere to go.. I can not seem to get the words to come out of my traitor mouth! I just say things like Oh I am watching what I eat, or exercise, or high protein (which mostly true). How do I just spit it out?? What will happen if I do? I used to be so judgy about why people don't tell other people they had surgery but I kind of get it now. How do you bring it up and what will they think of me? oh my lots to say on this, not enough time. I will come back to this one...
I guess I am worried about people will think and in a way worried about if it will affect me getting a teaching job in my own town... Is that weird? I want to tell all the overweight people that I know that I did have surgery but I just can't seem to find the right moment to do it. For all of you out there that I did not tell right away, I'm sorry I just didn't know how.. I am seriously considering making little cards and just handing them to people when they ask me so they can just go to my blog and read ALL about it.