Goal!

I met goal in July when I hit 125! I have been steady there for months now which is so exciting! Still no regrets! Sorry I haven't posted! It has been a whirl wind last few months!

New weightloss is going SLOW!

Im totally ok with my weight loss slowing down since I'm getting close to goal! I weighed in at 141.8 which puts me just over the 50lbs mark!!

But first let me take a selfie...

No not really I'm so not the selfie person on social networking sites at all but for some reason I feel a little free on my blog plus I bet you want to see some pictures.. Here goes!

And now for the dreaded bathing suit pictures...

Excuse my dirty bathroom please...

Ok now the real stupid selfies

Ok I'm done! LOL

About 3.5 months out

I am about 3.5 months out now and I have lost close to 50lbs! I think I have been doing the math wrong on a few posts... Oh well. I weighed in at 142.3 yesterday Woot Woot! I am feeling good though the my saggy arms and skin are kinda gross but I can totally live with it. I would rather be skinny and saggy than round and super plump like I was before. I wonder how much I will continue to lose?? My goal is 135 so I am hoping I will get to that number because that would be nice!

My hubby hates my new pants 😒

He told me my pants are ugly and he doesn't like the style.. He also hesitated so long when I asked well do I look ok in them?... I am so hurt. I had Isaac my 6 year old take some pix of me in them, I need a second opinion! Sorry for some blurry pix 😁

Yes I know that Old Navy runs two sizes bigger than normal sizes which makes my 6's really 10's and my 4's really 8's plus they are stretchy jeans. I know I know but it is still kind of awesome, right?!

Old Habits Die Hard

Well old habits due hard! I had a really bad day. I went to the dentist and because I am broke as a joke I never got a crown on my tooth that needed a root canal. Welllll now it needs to be redone and it is going to cost me $450 that I do not have! Plus it gets worse, the tooth next to it also needs a root canal... not to mention they will both need crowns. I sobbed in my car after the dentist visit for about 15 minutes and then drove to McDonalds. I do really love my sleeve though because I am eating a few fries and already I feel nasty and have not even taken a bite of the McDouble I ordered (ha). You know you have a serious food addiction when the taste of even one hot salty french fry can melt your stress away (even if only for a few minutes). I am so tired of being broke and having problems with my teeth! I am almost done with school and I can not wait to make a decent paycheck too bad my teeth won;t wait another two years!! I feel really bad because my husband has been wanting to buy a boy toy and has been holding back to be "good"  and now I am going to spend all our money on my stupid teeth! really. We need to save since I will not be making a dime starting in June of this year until I am done with student teaching and then still until I get/don't get subbing jobs or a real teaching position. OMG! Sometimes I do not know how we are going to make it. I'm scared.

Evil peeps

Oh man, the Easter candy is making my life miserable! I was so sad on Easter and kind of in a funk because I was not able to stuff my face the way I wanted to. I was too busy feeling sorry for myself to enjoy my "meal" with the family. Don;t get me wrong I am glad I can't eat like I want to but it does make me sad sometimes... What a weird thing it is to be addicted to food. Hopefully I can snap out of this mourning for food eventually..

Why do WLS patients LIE?

Well from the very beginning of this whole journey I told myself I was not going to lie to anyone who asked me how I am losing weight BUT this is proving to be harder than I thought, A LOT harder. It is weird..some people have asked me in a drive by manner, for example as they are walking by saying a quick hello but it is obvious they have somewhere to go.. I can not seem to get the words to come out of my traitor mouth! I just say things like Oh I am watching what I eat, or exercise, or high protein (which mostly true). How do I just spit it out?? What will happen if I do? I used to be so judgy about why people don't tell other people they had surgery but I kind of get it now. How do you bring it up and what will they think of me? oh my lots to say on this, not enough time. I will come back to this one...
I guess I am worried about people will think and in a way worried about if it will affect me getting a teaching job in my own town... Is that weird? I want to tell all the overweight people that I know that I did have surgery but I just can't seem to find the right moment to do it. For all of you out there that I did not tell right away, I'm sorry I just didn't know how.. I am seriously considering making little cards and just handing them to people when they ask me so they can just go to my blog and read ALL about it.

Am I Doomed? just ranting away...

Sometimes I really think that I am doomed to fail this surgery, which is pretty embarrassing to say the least. Maybe I am/was the worst candidate for surgery on the planet. I cheat constantly and I am in the "honeymoon" period of my surgery according to so many WLS books I have read and WLS blogs and forums that I read constantly. I wonder if other WLS patients feel this way?? I did not have this surgery to improve my health, honestly I am a firm believer that if your meant to die from a heart attack then your going to die from a heart attack regardless of your weight. I have been overweight most of my life so maybe that belief is a defense mechanism I do not know! Sometimes I feel like I don't know me! I had this surgery to look better and feel better and so that I could love me again and enjoy life more. We only get one you know! I am actually very tired, I mean very tired. The truth is I kind of depend on the medication I get at the "California weight loss clinic" to function. That is the first time I said that publicly.. What is going to happen to me when I am too skinny to get that medication anymore? I don't even want to think about it most days! I am afraid I am going to gain it all back at some point, I don't know. this is a very tricky emotional situation I am in after having WLS....it does help to rant about it like someone is listening. I often do not know what I am saying and I am constantly changing my mind about how I feel about things. Yes I would do it again because the regret would kill me and I am losing weight I just have to figure out a way to keep it off. I often wonder how skinny I will get, will I actually get to 135 lbs like my doctor thinks I will?? I don't know. Secretly I do want to be very skinny, is that bad? Maybe it is all the years of being such a fatty that make me think that being a sickly little stick would be kinda nice. I know I know that's gross, blah blah but I am being honest. What is worse being nasty skinny or nasty big? it is a matter of opinion for sure. Who knows what I will feel like if I ever get to that stage. I do not see that happening though because I am the queen of cheating and probably the worse WLS patient ever to have had this surgery....

A little Bitter

Yeah I highly doubt that...yes I had 3 walnut prawns and a noodle and a bite of shrimp fried rice but that's besides the point right now. I am feeling pretty bitter because my hubby just went out for drinks again (last time it was called golfing) and all I ever do is go to work, do chores, be mommy, be wifey, and write essays or do group projects at the darn library!!

It is not nice of me to be bitter after all he's meeting his adorable brother who is cop for drinks to celebrate the lives of four fallen officers last year. I am just having a  moment because I an overwhelmed and done with school and I can't freaking eat to soothe myself, and I know I can't have a single drink for 8 more months! Arghh, ignore this post I'm just venting and since I can't eat a cheeseburger I'm going to try complaining.. And it's helping a little.

8 weeks post OP

I weighed in at 157.6 this morning! Crazy. So I've lost about 34 lbs in 2 months. Wow.

7 weeks post OP

31 lbs down, I weighed in at 161.0! Woot woot!

Just a bad day

Well I had a horrible day.. We got up extra early to go buy the movie Frozen before they sold out, no movies at Safeway, we were almost late, work was long, my 6 year old got sick at school, they called my cell not my work, my kid sat there for an hour, I took my aunt to get a blood draw, had to wait in the car with a sick kid and a screaming one year old for 30+minutes, the baby scresmed all the way home because he was tired since the swing at the babysitters broke, got home baby was wet, the baby decides to pee everywhere as I am changing him, on my blanket my bed his blanket and his set of new clothes I was going to put on him AND his new shoes!!! Isaac is whiny, I had to wake up a soaking wet baby to take my 11 year old to practice, had to pick him up from his friends house because practice ended at 5 and not 530 like I thought it did, the baby screws the entire time I'm on the phone with him, then hubby gets home with frozen (bless his heart) and just as I am getting ready to put it in Isaac throws up all over my favorite rug!!! OMG I really just want a box of Oreos and a cheeseburger and a diet coke with a straw!!! I cried, I know silly but I was overwhelmed! I still am I can't wait for this day to be over! I annoy even gonna watch Frozen! I'm pouting!

Shoot me now!

6 weeks postOP and 26.5 lbs down !

Well here I am at 6 weeks out which means I am officially allowed to exercise, run, lift weights, and all that jazz which basically means I am out of excuses.. I am 26.5 lbs down which puts me at 165.4 lbs which is only 20lbs away from the skinniest I have every been and that is exciting!! So first things first, things are getting easier every day which is a huge blessing to me ( I think). I am able to eat without getting horribly sick now which can be dangerous because I do not want to fail at this. It is a struggle now to "behave myself" and eat the right foods. On a positive note I am suddenly able to take in more fluids this week! Yippee!!
Another thing that is on my mind is that one of my  dear BFFs is flying in from Georgia in May for us to do Bay to Breakers and I can bearly manage to walk for 2 miles without feeling very very weak :(. I know there is only one way to get to seven miles and that is to get out there and walk as much as I can. Yesterday I walked almost 2 miles and today I walked for about a half hour so I am off to a good start. I know my buddy want to run but I think I will be lucky to be able to brisk walk for 7 miles without dying! Anyway wish me luck. I promise to post a full body before picture and a current one soon I am just not so comfortable asking my hubby to take the current picture, last time for the before my mom was here so she did it :).

Eating out ....

I know I shouldn't be eating out but it is hard to explain our family dynamic... We don't go out much but when we do it's a fun kind of family time. Anyway so I went to Red Robin and had an eye opening experience... It was the weirdest feeling only being able to take a bite or two of my food. I felt so self-conscious about it! I felt like the waitress and my husband were staring at my food every five seconds. The only thing that saved me was that my one year old was so super fussy and I just held him, played with him, and pretended to eat. I could not wait until it was over. So for those of you wondering what the heck I ordered, it was a Cesar chicken wrap and cup of chicken tortilla soup. I thought that would be OK since I could pick out the chicken and drink the broth from the soup well I was wrong! The soup broth was thick like enchilada sauce and the wrap was mostly lettuce which I don't even eat yet! Not that I could even eat without some major discomfort from the chicken! what sucks is that I ate a french fry just fine! Next time I will go with fish and mashed potatoes but Red Robin had none of that.
The next day was opening day for baseball and my hubby wanted to go out for breakfast... another kind of tradition. However, this time I told the waitress I was just going to eat whatever the kids and baby did not eat. So I ordered from the kids menu, so much smarter and less weird. I got the scrambled egg with cheese, two slices of bacon and half a waffle. I actually ate a bite of egg, a quarter to a half slice of bacon and two "squares" of the waffle, the rest the I let the baby play with and he made a mess and most of the food ended up on the floor.

5 weeks and 23.5 lbs down!

It feels good to see the scale move consistently ;) however I have been feeling pretty sluggish! I'm so tired all the time and I feel weak. It is hard to carry my baby upstairs and stuff like that without feeling like it is so hard! I can't wait till next week when I am really cleared to exercise so I can't use that as an excuse anymore! I need to start jogging again or at least walking fast since my BFF is flying in from Georgia to do Bay to Breakers with me!! I can not imagine walking not to mention jogging that far, 7 miles! Wish me luck.

Why did I have the surgery, you ask?

Well for those of you that want to know why I chose to have this surgery, let me give you a few of my main reasons. First, I think I was the perfect candidate for this surgery because of my weight history. I have been overweight since I was five years old and when I was in fifth grade I weighed over 160lbs! So my mother (rest in peace) thinking she was doing me a favor put me on Jenny Craig, and guess what she made me a life time member! Yay me, NOT! That right there scarred me for life. I did however get down to 135lbs, which made my mother very proud. I love my mother very much dont get me wrong but we are not all perfect. Anyway I struggled with my weight all through school and had to endure being made fun of on a daily basis. (Not fun). When I was in eighth grade my mother passed away and eight months later my house burned down in a freak accident that took my father's life. Now I was really a wreck emotionally and went to live with my sister who was 10 years older than me and had a family. Those years were rocky at first and then they were good. Well in college I caught on to the whole phentermine thing and I lost a lot of weight and I looked good, for a couple years (like 3). Then I got married and got pregnant and I gained all my weight back plus some. I gained 80lbs during that pregnancy, I know that is quite horrid. I delivered my first adorable son and was left weighing in at 230lbs. After that I lost some weight again and probably got back into the high 180's but then I started to let myself go again (not to mention I was getting older). By the time I noticed my weight again, I was really wanting another baby. Having another baby turned out to be harder than it was the first time (since I was not trying the first time!), I ended up having a series of miscarriages and an eggtopic pregnancy that almost killed me since it ruptured internally. Needless to say I was a mess for a while after that, we were even trying to adopt a baby so my Danny who was already 4 could have a sibling, but no one wanted to give us a baby and that took its toll on me and my hubby. Finally I prayed to God and asked him to please cause chaos in the adoption process if this was not what he wanted for me and my family. I told Him that I would still LOVE him even if I never had another baby. I also promised that if I did have another baby and it was a boy that I would name him Isaac(inspired by the story of Abraham and Isaac). Low and behold, the adoption office in my town shutdown that week! (God answers prayers). They told us we could go to an office in Oakland which was a good ways away from our home so we just quit because I had my sign, this was not for us. The next month I was pregnant and I knew from day one that it would be a boy and it was. ( I know I am getting way off topic here but now I just want to vent a little). After I had Isaac I was determined to lose the weight and I joined a weight loss challenge put on by herbalife. I did good but I somehow found my way back to the weight loss drug phentermine....( I know, that is bad). I was feeling good though I got all the way down to 147lbs at one point!! I even ran a half marathon and kept the weight off for about 3 years. After that my life took another turn for the worse (ALOT of family drama I cannot discuss) I had so much stress and financial problems that I found myself in old habits again. I found myself back at 190lbs in no time at all. I went back to school to try to help our financial situation and 3 months later I was blessed (did not feel that way at first) with another pregnancy and another beautiful baby boy, Joseph. That pregnancy left me at 225lbs once again and I was miserable and embarrassed. That is when I found out about my friend who had had bypass and been very successful so I started learning everything I could about Weight loss surgery. Once I figured out who to talk to it only took me a couple of months to get approved and get a surgery date. I figured I needed something that hopefully will be permanent because I was tired of the up and down because it was so emotionally draining. Also this is my life! and I only get one and I wanted to do this so so badly and I knew if I did not do it that would have always wished I had. So I took the plunge and did it. Yes I am afraid of what people will say, very afraid. Yes I am afraid I will fail and gain it all back, but then again I have done that many times before, this way at least I will not regret not having given it a try. My surgery was completely covered by Kaiser and my copay on surgery day was only $20! So I took a few days off work, had to endure some pain, and really pissed off my hubby but all in all I did not loose much in going ahead with the surgery.  In the end, it is my body and I can do with it whatever I want. I really feel like this is a new start for me and I hope this is the beginning of a whole new me forever!

4.5 weeks postOP and down 21.5lbs.

4 weeks post op today!

I weighed in at 172 so that is 20 lbs down!! Yippee. Some days I think I made a mistake by having this surgery and some days I am so happy I did! I got my first compliment yesterday too about how much weight I have lost!! Those really help!

Fluids!!

 

This is my everyday bottle of watered down purple Gatorade (G2) that I try to drink everyday. Aside from Gatorade it is really hard for me to get my fluids in. I just wish I could gulp fluids down still! I do not think I have made my goal of 64 oz once since surgery. I really need to drink because if I get dehydrated even pre-sleeve it is all bad. I usually end up in the ER hooked up to an IV for hours on end! I am trying my best to get the liquid in but it is so hard!! 

Kids...

 

Well this particular morning was rough because the alarm did not go off so we had to rush out of the house with no breakfast but then we ended up with a few extra minutes and the boys said they were hungry! Stupid me agreed right away to bring them through the BK drive through secretly hoping I could take a bite of something! Well they got out of the car after eating and left all that extra food in my car!! I would have normally ate it all on the way home but today was different! I took all that food and dumped it into a garbage can and went home and ate a tiny piece of salmon we had cooked the night before! Yay me! it is a small victory but it is a victory! 

Distractions

 

Well since some of my clothes is already getting loose I have decided to distract myself by upcycling some of my big clothes into new one. Currently I am woking on making a long jersey dress out of a Shirt and some old tshirts. I will post a pic when I am done.

My breakfast...

Sometimes all I have time to grab in the morning is a cheese slice and five wheat thins... It is not ideal but leaving the house with 3 kids by 7:30 to pick up to more for carpool and getting to work by 8:30 is so very tricky for me.

Protein Problems

Yup, I'm bad and I know it..

 

I went out for Icecream with my kids and I caved and ordered a child size scoop of  orange sherbert :( . It went down ok I guess but it DID taste good!

Goldfish are the enemy!

Gold fish are my enemy. I can eat  up to ten of these no problem at all and I think about these darn little fish all day!! I need to stop. I think this would be considered a "slider food" because they do not make me sick at all!

It is the little things...

When I go to the store now, instead of buying myself a KitKat I buy myself something else. I have recently gotten a new lipstick, gloss, blush, and new razors(which I love for some reason!). Buying myself something that is not food really helps me feel better and it helps me not get upset because I can not eat.

3 Weeks Post Op Today!!

 

I am 15lbs down now! Woot woot ! I am having some trouble though, this is harder than I thought it was going to be! I kind of cheat a lot.. and by that I mean snacking on things and on top of that tasting things that are bad like my sons snacky foods. :( Sometimes I feel like I am not gonna be so great at this whole bring a sleever and some days I feel like I am going to rock it! It is a very emotional roller coaster to say the least....  

On a positive note I am feeling much better about myself.. see I am wearing red lipstick and the super fat me would never do that.

Pureed Foods :/

 

Don't get me wrong I love my baby bullet and I am glad not to be on full liquids any more but YUCK! The first few days were ok, but after that it was so hard to eat that nastiness! It tasted fine but the texture made me want to vomit! So....I only did a week of pureed food and was done with that. No, my doctor did not clear me but did you know that in some states sleevers do not even have to do a pureed diet for two weeks so yeah I'M DONE! DONE! DONE! 

14lbs. DOWN

I will be 3 weeks postOP in 4 days and I have lost 14lbs. I weigh  178.0! Woot Woot! Granted I am considered a "light" weight sleever because I started my pre-OP journey at 206 and had surgery at 192. I feel great and I am starting love myself again! I was getting a little discouraged because for 4 days I did not lose an ounce but sure enough the scale started moving again! For any of you in a stall just keep going!

Liar, LIAR!

Whether to tell people of not is such a BIG issue for weight loss surgery patients. I have read a lot about it and it really is a personal choice when it comes down to it. I say follow your gut. I personally do not want to seem like a big fat liar, no pun intended, so I only told a few people but I figure when someone asks me directly I will tell them.  The reason I did not tell everyone straight up from the beginning is because I did not want a bunch of negative energy being directed my way right as I am about to undergo a major surgery! I don't want to lie about it, however I lied about why I needed a week off of work... so I am kind of a liar, right?!

I have a close friend who lied about it and honestly it made it into a bigger deal than it really was. Everyone talked more smack knowing that she lied instead of that she did it. Eventually all the different stories about how she lost the weight started getting crossed because there were different versions going around our little town.  I think she looks amazing and it is working for her so who cares right! So I am going to try to avoid that by just telling people the truth when they ask me how I lost this weight (this time). Or if someone asked me directly did you have weight loss surgery of course I will say yes.
It is complicated, I get that but for all the people out there trying to do it themselves and struggling I feel like I should tell the truth when asked because it just might convince them to go ahead and do it themselves or at least look into it. I also do not want to down play the people doing it the hard way because I did it the hard way a few times and it sucked. Do not get me wrong this is hard in a whole other way but I still feel like the extra help I get from not having a normal sized stomach and the help from the post-op (miserable) diet are cheating. Honestly, I am good with that. I have tried every quick fix pill, long fix system, exercise program on earth so what the he**.
Everybody secretly wants a little help or a little cheat... I know I did! 
For all those people who look down upon weight loss surgery, OH WELL! It is a free country and you can have your own opinion. Just keep your negativity away from me. The way I see it is I only get one life to live and it is MINE. I wanted to do this so I did, no regrets.

Dressing rooms..

I have always hated dressing rooms since I was a child! Today, however, I think I'm starting to like myself again. At least a little bit ;)

Happy Valentine's Day

Well I cheated! I ate one of these even though it took me a long time. I know I shouldn't but holy cow I wanted one! I got so so many goodies from my sweet preschoolers too! It has been a rough two days!

Please Mommy! I'm on my little KNEES!

Not picking up my baby is killing me! I can't wait until I am allowed to pick him up!!!

Spaghetti Sauce for me

My family had spaghetti last night :(. I had spaghetti sauce but I must have had too much and I made myself sick again. I went for a walk and that helped the nauseated feeling a little. I spent the rest of the night in bed :(. I guess I have to measure out only one ounce of food when trying something new because being sick sucks!!!

Happy Birthday to me ;)

I had puréed chicken and spinach for dinner. Also for my birthday treat we all had sugar free chocolate pudding with whipped cream. I took the whipped cream off of mine and only had a tiny bite since I was over stuffed and feeling nasty from the chicken... real food makes me feel gross! Sigh...

10lbs. DOWN!

Woot Woot! I have lost 10lbs and weighed in at 182!! (I am doing my celebration dance right now!) Among other good things, I passed the first state test for my teaching credential (I'm doing my dance again!)! I was very worried about having enough energy and motivation to study for the test and actually go take it after having had the surgery not even two weeks ago but God is so good to me! All went well I felt fine during the test and after and especially now!
I have been really struggling with my food addiction and head hunger the last few days so having some happy news really helps. And that is another reason that is evidence that I am an emotional eater, especially a stress eater! Now that the test is over and I feel some happiness the head hunger seems more manageable (at least today). I guess I am always looking for some sort of buzz or pleasure and when I do not get it from life I find it in food but not anymore!

So I bet some of you want to know what I am eating right so here goes...

Breakfast I had 1/2+ cup of cream of wheat made with fat free milk ( and two splendas )

Lunch I had 1/4 of cream of broccoli soup which I pureed in my baby bullet :) even though I am not on pureed foods yet... I figured some broccoli wouldn't kill me if it was pureed into soup.

I also ate another ritz cracker on the way to take my test (stress cracker)!!!

i have had 20 oz of crystal light and am currently working on another water bottle of it while I am at the library studying again. Man no time to celebrate the passing one test because we have to move on to the next one (which is on the 22nd) and also I have 1,000 word paper to write by tomorrow night. The library closes at 6 and then I have to decide what soupy mush I will eat for dinner tonight while my family eats real food (arghhh)!

I messed up...

I have been really struggling with food demons and... I ate a cracker! I know I know that's bad. I chewed so so much and it went OK. I have a major food addiction and this surgery makes it so obvious that it us undeniable. :(

Made myself sick!!

Yesterday, I made myself so so sick! I thought it would be a good idea to get one of those fancy soups at the super market and strain it for my dinner. I chose a wonderful lobster bisque (YUM) but it must have been to rich or greasy and I ran to the bathroom twice within the first two spoonfuls! Finally after the second time I realized it was the soup having this affect on me! Yikes! I really need to learn to listen to my body when I am trying something new to my sleeve. I felt sick for the next 2 hours and went to the bathroom A LOT of times before I finally went to sleep.

I am having a MOMENT!

My family is having a wonderful dinner tonight... so far I have not been interested in what they are eating but TONIGHT...I really want a bite! I decided to go to my room while they eat and get the leftovers put away to be safe. But I am really in a bad mood, I want it so badly but I know I can't have that. I can't even have a bite of it and I think I am going crazy! It is amazing how much food controls me. This feeling that I am having right now is exactly why I am over weight in the first place. It is sobering to know I CAN NOT and WILL NOT eat that today. I am however looking forward to the day I can have it and only eat a small amount and be totally OK with that normal amount of food.
I also went through my skinny clothes to make myself feel better and that calmed my nerves a little. I have one more box of jeans under my bed but I can't get to it because it still hurts to bend in weird ways. I guess that is normal since I just had surgery a little over a week ago.... Pray for me!

One week plus some Miralax and Finally I went!

One week post OP today

I am week out today and I have lost 7.6 lbs. !! That's crazy good! I weigh 184.4! Woot Woot!

Constipated?

Well I had surgery on the 29th and have not eaten anything since the 28th at 5:30 p.m. and no BM yet.. I took milk or mag this afternoon but just 20 ml which is less than the recommended dose. I also took one colase soft gel which made me feel yucky. I hope something happens soon! I have read some pretty scary stuff online about this issue.. YIKES

I would recommend taking TWO weeks off of work!

I thought my first day was going great but now at 6 and after a two hour staff meeting (3-5) I'm completely exhausted and everything hurts....

First Day Back at Work

I am 6 days post OP and I'm headed back to work this morning. Still taking dauladid * as needed for pain. I am a preschool teacher and only work from 8:30-12:15 so I should be fine. Wish me luck! I am feeling good now, it was nice getting back into the drop off routine with my three boys. :)

Full Liquids

OK this is my second day on full liquids and I am feeling much better. This is a tomato soup with a tablespoon of cream cheese melted into it. I also added garlic powder, salt, and pepper. It was so good I almost wished I could eat more than a couple ounces ;) but I can't and that's kind of amazing . I only finished a quarter of that tiny bowl and was FULL.!!!